im insecure with my relationship with kak. i have been avoiding checking her hp for any mgs or anything. i try to control my self and trust her but just yesterday i was really upset. i waited for her to finish work for 4.5 hrs after work till 1030 and i stand in front of thai express waiting for her to come towards me and maybe give me a hug but she walked pass and turned around and asked me to walk to her. trying to avoid to be seen from her colleague. i dint know why she dint want her friends to see her with me together in action. it just makes my heart break. when i asked her, she said she was shy. i think she's embarrass of me and dnt want anyone she know to see her with me. its sad but true. i don't think I'm this Strong to take this pressure. i just checked her facebook, wish is the only profile she has online and honestly, ive always avoided checking her facebook cuz ill always get jealous or hurt everytime i read her comments. im tearing now. i cnt help my self. im insecure. i checked and i saw a few comments from kokiss G.K . i have no idea who she is but by her comments, kak have been commenting her first and by the way she comment kak, kak did msg her. i don't know what to do. i cnt control my feelings. is she cheating on me?
pls..if u happen to read this post. i really want to know the truth. pls do tell me everything. i dont know whats happening with us. i always act as if im happy but i really am hiding lots of emotions from you. i dont want u to be angry at me when u see me cry. i don want u to think im not grown up. i dont want u to say ' grow up lah eka!' . just so u know, i am trying to grow as fast as i can.
someone, pls help my poor broken heart.
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